Where to go from here?

So I just got home from having coffees with a friend of mine. He and I are getting aquainted after literally 10 years of seperation. I will refer to him as J.

J is a mover and a shaker. He is amazing at what he does in the business world. There is no telling where he is going to end up on the months and years to come. But what so impressive about him is not what he does and how much money he is making as much as it is how much fun he is having doing it. He loves his job. It isn't work to him. Confusious says that if you find a job you absolutly love to do you will never work a day of your life. That is what attracks me to J's way of life. He is happy. There are a few other people that I know that love what they do. I have found, that no matter what is that they do for a living, their way of life, out look on life, everything about them is very attractive.

So, as usual, I am force to look at my life. Do people feel the same about my and my job. I have a job that not anyone can do. There is skills and talents that are required. Some of those things come very easily for me and I find it quite difficult to put my finger on where I learned them. Other aspects I dread. I loose sleep over.

It is hard to say that I will do this for the rest of my life. I might. I might not. I feel like every point of my life is a learning experience for the next part. The thing is I have tons of unrelated interests.

I met a man once who was trying to figure out what we wanted to do with his life. He tried different job avenues but wasn't satisfied. Until on day he decided to sit down and write out all the things he loved to do. Money was not an issue. He dreamed big. When we exhausted his list he sat back and read over the results. He tried to figure out what he could do with some or all of the intrest represented on the page. And he did, today he runs a one man mission organization where he takes youth groups on camping trips, canue rides, cross country skiing, etc. He even does retreats where he cooks, teaches, leads games and singing or all of the above. He does make that much money but he is happy and he is good at what he does.

So I follow his lead . . . what do I enjoy doing?
Here goes:
Anything that involves music. Performing, recording, arranging, consulting, writing, touring, etc.
And everything that goes a long with that. Working with equipment such as computers, keyboards, sound systems, midi, samples, and the like.
But I love video editing as well as web site creation and maintaning.
I realy want to learn more of 3d rendering and animation.

I tend to think that I would do well to be my own boss. I get stagnate doing the same thing for too long. But I have a family that I need to support.

I don't know. And I am sorry that I don't have the answers for who ever reads this blog. But I am on a journey and I don't have the faintest idea where I am going end up. This writing is, perhaps, a tool to help me figure that out.

Thanks for listening . . . any insite would be welcome!

Yo